Esterification

2010-12-09T20:24:00.002+08:00

Hello fellow people! In case you are wondering where had i been since forever. Just to share with you guys that i have already started on my intensive 3 1/2 months training with Singapore Airlines. The rest of the information are quite confidential and im not allow to post it here.

till then,,,
wish me luck people! :)

Dream is just 2cm away

2010-10-17T20:53:00.002+08:00

It took ages for me to decide this post here today.

Too much things have been happening that it's really hard to summarise in this tiny space. Life is moving up to another stage that i think twice for a break. So dont even talk about catching up with friends for teabreaks. If you people are reading this i hope you really understand. Days had been really hectic for me.
Getting ready for sis wedding next month is getting me craze. I've not yet get my gown. Now that my home is under renovation and sis alone at her place , im here to stay with her. Away from neighbourhood for awhile. Town area aint as good as you think. The standard of living is like doubly high here. Yes, even chicken rice. Anyway, its not condominium , just apartment so stop saying my sis is rich hur.

By the way, yeah ..I went for SIA interview and surprisely i went through all the rounds but unfortunately they haven email me till now. Yet on the happier side, luckily i hope they don't email me cause thinking about menses cramp and headaches i always get, how a i going to fly? I hate having this kinda dilemma. It's like i wanna go for it but i dont want it? Fcuk it.

Okay, now im so excited about my new painted home. I cant wait to move back to Ang Mo Kio. I miss home and i miss home cook food. i need to get new wallpaper, table, bedsheets and curtains for my room. teehee.

There isin't ugly woman, only lazy ones.

2010-08-09T23:01:00.003+08:00

love me;

hey there. my life have been at a slower pace these couple of weeks. things getting better. finally settle down with my job. just got back from a short trip with my family.

this blog is dying sooner or later. seems like all my buddies aint updating their bloggie anymore too. my new pet hamster YY has took up my left over time other than working sleeping and chilling out. he is really adorable at times. trust me.

i stil think about my goals but its just not the right time yet.

ive got more things to do than getting bother by some lame stuffs. you know it dont bother me. you know. one word from me and its done. dont test my patience. theres limit to everything.

to those who love. i know you people are stil around. i might not see but dont think that i never feel your presence. i do. and thankyou. one thing you must know, if you really love me. you will want me to be happy and not bring up all the old memories which we can never get over it. come on, future is just not faraway anymore. give me a billion and i stil dont wanna go back in time. i fight for everything i deserved today and the old fuck up times just didnt got me anywhere. i love my life now and things are slowly picking up. so let us work together.

im finally having orientation tomorrow and im so looking for the dinner and dance next week!! yayhay

and now, goodnight world ;)

2010-06-27T21:15:00.002+08:00

life would have been easier

sorrrrrrrrrrrrrry blogger to neglect you once again. im back but theres too much happenings for me to even summarize here.

my birthday, my work-for-2-weeks-job, and my new job etc.

so as for my birthday, to cut it short. credits to my gfs and my mdis clique mates. i wouldnt have a successful bday celebration without you people. and on your birthday, you just tends to understand who really cares and bother and who dont. awwwwwwwwwwww.

as for my previous job at far east plaza,,,, no more. its a boring job and its just not an environment that i wanna stay for long so goodbye retail. and friends, im able to get my pay for that 2weeks , dont worry.

last week went for an interview at the American club and yeah , got in. most people who knows about it says that its a good job and the company has got lots of privileges. so welcome to my world American club. i hope you will be a good job and i'll love you. so after getting a full time job probably wont be coming to my blog as often as before.

will update more about my job as soon as i settle down there.

i miss my gfs and i know they miss me too.

my days have mostly been used on my sweet bf, so please understand sweeties.

LOVE ALL

2010-06-27T20:33:00.003+08:00

if love has a reason

yeah, by now all of you should have already know that ive got a boyfriend. in case you dont know he's my primary school friend. and right, after so long. here we are. together. like i always say, you can say anything about me. oh, Esther got new boyfriend again ah? cause it seriously doesnt bother me. if you know me as much, you know i wouldnt just get together with any other guy who is interested in me. i dont believe in eternity but i always believe that finding happiness when you can. when you are able to do so. who knows i die tomorrow? i dont wanna leave regrets behind

well, i can only say we just surrender to fate sometimes. like some who say, some people take years to get you and some just take days. absolutely right. like how some gave you huge romantic surprises and you feel nothing and some just scribble on your hand and you feel that he's the sweetest person on earth. like i always said, life's never fair lah.

what i wanna say in this post is, he's different. he really is. different from any other guy. i used t think about what he was doing before we met. think about how he used to treat his ex gfs and stuffs and then get upset over it. i know its me always being overly paranoid but seriously it doesnt matter to me what he was before now. all it matters is, i want us to last. as long as we could. as long as we stil fell in love. as long as you stil wants me to be your gf.

this guy here, waits for me under my block when im upset, surprise me with roses on our very first actual date, waits more than an hour for me when im doing pedicure, fold my pretty roses on my bday, send me to and fro work almost everyday, play with little kids like his, indulge in all kinds of animals (esp dogs), rub my tummy when it aches, love his family more than anything else though he might not shows, behaves like a little child when he needs my company, singing out of tune (probably never do that to any girls before), longbang me on his bicycle and afraid that i would hurt my legs, tap me to sleep and give me a kiss on my forehead. its all these, tiny winy little things you might not even notice you did that makes me feel that falling in love with you can never b a mistake. i thankyou for coming into my life sweetheart.

i dont know when will you b able to see this but i just wanna tell you

iloveyou, for the one hundred and one times ;)

2010-06-03T22:52:00.001+08:00

my new bestfriend 'killer heels' that probably make me look like a giant standing beside all other girls.

but i like it very much as it wasnt easy to get hahahah ;)

2010-06-03T22:10:00.005+08:00

rewind

dinner at seletar airbase just now. finally get to try the different levels of wings people always talked about. tried level 2 and 8. i wonder how people eat level 30? it will probably burn their tummy. as the 8th one burn my tongue badly! so spicy can?! still, the atmosphere and staff there were awesome.

woke up 730am this morning. my soul is already half asleep by now. really tired but i still wanna come online because i feel like talking to someone who doesnt even realize my existence. i could just be like a fool waiting for that person who is never gonna talk to me.

the weather is making me sick seriously. m starting to get immune with my surrounding. including the new people, weather, sleeping hours.

ive got a huge ulcer ;( sigh

kind of nervous for tmr work, as well as for monday. kbye

2010-06-03T11:59:00.002+08:00

and by the way,
extented some pink hair yesterday ;)

2010-06-02T23:16:00.003+08:00

heartbroken cant be that bad

life's a bitch at times but no matter what, life goes on like ive always said. had been going out everyday recently because staying home only make me feel worse. nevertheless, it always comes to a day where you get a hole in the pocket. the day for me is not here yet, so before my money is all used up, ive got a job. yeah, hurray. some of you are happy congratulating me right? thanks. but its only a temporary job. its a retail shop at far east plaza. will be working there from next week onwards. anyway, the interview was '*^%$#$%^&*()" dont even wanna talk about those jiao interviewer lahsxz. overall shop environment, fashion clothes and new colleagues are still alright. so... we'll see how it goes first.

as for this weekend, fri sat and sun i will be at tampines mall for this roadshow thingy. can drop by if you are free. working with a primary sch friend that i haven been talking to for years and now,,, bring back all the memories from primary school. hopefully it will turn out fun.

busy days are back. which means no more drama, no more msn, no more late nights. sighh

on the happier tone, ive got a pair of mouse pumps on sunday, a pair of red vans canvans on monday, a pair of m)phosis sandal on tuesday and a pair of f**king chio killer heels today. total = 4pairs of shoes in 4 consecutive days wahahahaha!

call me a shopaholic ;P

besides shoes there more but i wouldnt wanna say to scare you all. sibei haolian i know. got myself an advance birthday gift before i quit botakjones too. will post up pictures of it after my birthday.

GSS!!!!!! (Y)

exactly one more week to my 19th. nothing to look forward to. maybe just dine out with my gfs and maybe my mdis mates who are able to make it on that special day of mine cause for all the other days i'll be busying working already.

you dont feel anything when you get busy.

numb

and when $ are coming in, you ought to be happy ;)

thats for now

cheers and goodnight.

2010-06-01T00:01:00.000+08:00

they say life can be insanely unfair sometimes but to me its most of the time

i pretend to put on a smile doesnt mean deep down inside i feel the same way that i look. most of you may think that im rich ,ive got a happy family ,good friends around me and tons of guys chasing after me. the good friends part i have to admit cause all of my friends treat me like a spoilt princess.

guys? just how many of them are true?

if you think im rich and ive got happy family, please. i dont. i dont live like how you think i am. my f-up family background is 1000000 X worse than you can ever imagine. i finally decided to post it out on my blog not because i know many of you out there do read it but because i cant stand it anymore and theres nothing else i could do now but type it out here. but trust me, one fine day i wil move out of this house. be it i found a good guy or not, i will get out of this hell place.
my parents are divorce as most of you know. i used to stay with my dad only since 5 with my younger bro sean and elder sis ryvonne. yeah, only the both of them are my real blood siblings. so therefore our realationship kinda close.

my dad borrowed loanshark since we were young. he drink, smoke, gamble and as much as i know now. he used to molest girls. yeah. freak out. theres a reason behind everything. and theres a reason why im so skinny. i used to have one loaf of bread shared between the three of us for breakfast, lunch and dinner. i was only 5 year old then when i knew how bad my family background was and how sensible i have to be compared to all the other children at the same age. i didnt dare to fall sick, cause everytime i fall sick, i only get scolding as my parents think that going to e doctor is a waste of money. my mum decided to leave us to death and let us b with my dad. she chose to abandon us when we were only so young.

as soon as i turn 11, i moved over to stayed with my mum. part of the reason was because my dad wasnt capable to let us lead a life. no even a good life K. do you know how difficult it is for the three of us to buy school books and school uniform when we were in primary school? some of them we got it free form ppl's donation, and some we beg money from our aunt/uncle.

i thought things will turn out better when i moved over with my mum. althought i had to start working part time at the age of 13 to have allowance for myself. i didnt felt that i was the worse kid ever. partly due to my good friends i have in school. so for the past 6years, i didnt ask a single cent from my parents

well, i have to say i am kinda fortunate ive got a step sister who is more willing to help us in anything as long as we listened to her. she's very fierce and thats y u know i never come home after 11pm even until now unless special occasion that sometimes i had to beg to go.

enough of the past.
back to now.

i bought a bouquet of flowers for my mum on mother's day and she refused to take as she insisted that all she want is money not flowers and asked me to throw it away. tell me, how many of ur mum say this to u? and how many of ur mum scold you vulgar? she didnt know how this few words could hurt and all she thinks about is only $$$$. and from then till now, i've yet talk to her. she claimed that i treat my home like a hotel, when she say that hotel also need to pay to stay k. please, have u ever thought about u contributing anything as a mum? im only fucking 19 and i dont have a stable job. all i have is just a part time job which pays my daily allowance, transportation and phone bill.

my mum": you better go get a full time job and give me money every month'.
my dad":quickly go find a job so that i can stop working'.
F. im only 19. how much u people expect me to earn?!!!!!!
why do i have to endure all the nonsense that none of my friend needs to

and today,
there she goes again...
when are you getting a job?
when r u giving me money?
why didnt you do the chores?
you either listen to me or you get out of the house!

F world
F you

I want to, but teach me how

i would have just gone out to drink , smoke, gamble ,sex.
if you know me well, you know i does none of the above. except for drinking alcohol for once and how much i regretted it. believe it or not. it doesnt matter to me.

theres tooo many things for my to cry over. its time i save my precious tears on something more worthwhile.

Esther, there are still many things out there for you to discover. dont get upset over things like that.
iloveyou
SMILEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ;)

2010-05-31T22:55:00.004+08:00

stay close dont go

more photos here in facbook,,,,,

2010-05-30T21:52:00.001+08:00

My New Shoes! just bought it like 2hours ago! so kawaii nehsxz right LOL

2010-05-28T00:05:00.009+08:00

Vio's 19th

basically i dont know why my photos turned out to be in this format. i seriously never change any template or gay shit.

photos from viola advance bday celebration yesterday. sad to say i had to go back after the steamboat while the rest went for sheesha n drinks. hope you enjoyed yourself viola though we didnt get you any present except for e balloon. As we knew you got everything you want and there wouldnt be anything you will like that we can afford lol. im sorry. but really glad that we were able to celebrate for you as we didnt get to do so last year ;) have fun at your phuket trip k!~

finally finished watching another drama series. been sleeping alot yet feeling so exhausted. arghhh.

been going out every single day!!! even with or without accompany i can stil hangout. need to stop this habit.

had my first meal at 9pm just now. li hai bo?

just had a chocolate icecream too! and i bought honeystars n milk. gonna eat it later. whoohooo.

gosh, my legs are numb ;(

2010-05-26T15:53:00.006+08:00

can we stay like this forever?

my fruitful tuesday with skinnyass ,banana and keekee. part of my 3most important in life ;)

headed down to nyp to find anna and keesoon as i had never been there before. yeap, frog in the well. though im staying so near to nyp but ive never been there before. infact ive been to all the other poly except tp. so after hearing that nyp fried nuggets are better than macdonalds ones and its freaking cheap. like 5 for 1buck ONLY can?! cheaper than our school :s

me and alicia got to sneak into both their lecture hall. boring like anything. always thought that polytechinc are way more fun than private school but im so wrong. the long hours in lecture hall kills. some students even sleep at the back of the hall ahahahaha.

so after that we went down to bugis for shopping, dinner, heartalks, camwhore and desserts. got a pretty jumper from bugis street! its very prettyae! not those ah lians cute jumper. very arabic feel one. you wont b able to imagine untill i wear it and show u hehehe.

anyway, thanks alicia for the gifts from hokkaido! so much love.

finding a suitable job wasnt as easy as i thought. so for the time being... PLAY ;D

2010-05-25T01:28:00.004+08:00

peolpe who make you feel life all worthwhile again

i have been constantly wasting money of food and still, no weight gain. i am basically eating since i woke up till NOW. my mouth just never stop munching.

i need to go jogging like tomorrow or maybe the day after or maybe the day after after...

2010-05-24T02:04:00.005+08:00

figure it out

photos from nic's advance birthday chalet. definitely not a smashing one where we had to eat macdonalds before the bbq starts at 830pm and the group of uncivilised ah lians beside actually made it worse. still hope you had a great time though ,nic.

im feel a little cranky and when am i not anyway. boohoo

pardon me for being so random. you should really witnessed how my classmate react to it. "you certainly dont look like 47kg esther, you look like the the girl i used to like in primary school weighing 39kg." Well and most of my friends conclude that its my hair that adds me up to my 47kg. i checked my BMI and 47kg is definitely categorized under unhealthy and 53 makes me healthy according to the stupid BMI table.

these days i had been thinking far too much for the future as well as the past. i am utterly disgusted by people who think 'i am so right, you know nothing and so you are a loser' . words of facts coming from evil mouth does not put justice in the today's world. just think about how successful are you to judge others? its perfectly fine being failure as long as long as you know how to pick yourself up once again but hell no to the fact that failure have the guts to give senseless opinions. talk about righteousness lah!

let those who dream be awake and those who does evil be shaken.

kkkk, enough of crapping.

NIGHTSZX.

2010-05-23T02:40:00.003+08:00

From the bottom of my heart

i really like all these pictures alot. webcam photos always turn out to be so prettyae even without editing or photoshop ;)

anyway, my complexion is recovering. not as bad as the week before probably due to my menses and now, goodbye menses and pimples. well, but late night sleep isint helping at all. i just wont get to bed before 3am and therefore i decided to blog since nobody wanna entertain me on facebook.

sis's bf is here and so i have to sleep in the living room tonight instead of sqeezing with the both of them in my tiny winy room.

money running low. total cash now is 90bucks. never felt this poor. now without school, work and money. with this situation im feeling rather useless. really am. arghhh. why dont some money just drop from the sky? what should i do? sigh.

mentally exhausted. too many things happened recently. too much for me to think about. but ive finally made up my mind to stop thinking about all these stupiak issues which were making me confused. haven talk to my mum since forever. she probably hates me now.

what doesnt breaks you, makes you.

happybirthday nicholas! and goodnight people.

2010-05-21T01:17:00.002+08:00

hello, you there?

hello ailens,

back to bloggie. bloggie sounds like a dog name lol.

ive resigned from botakjones and my days had been so relaxing! this break is the best break ever. no work no school. can you imagine? though the fact that cash at bank is running low which theres nothing i can do about it now.

monday went for facial like finally cause everyone says my face damn cui. and therefore byebye to 88bucks. tuesday stayed home for the whole day and watched my taiwan drama for the whole 15hours non stop. call me god hahaha. and that exact day i slept for 15hours TEEHEE.

yesterday was out with my mdis mates. its a pity we didnt managed to take any photos as i left my camera to rot at home. chickeeeeeeeen. it really takes forever to ask everyone out. its really difficult. everyone moving on with their life and work and me? thinking about how to get more beauty sleep and move my ass out to exercise everyday.since my cert is not here yet.

and todayy.... pedicure! my toe nail extension broke last week and it got me so much troubled as im afraid people will see my one sided broken toe nail and therefore i wear covered shoes everyday zzz. now that my nails are back in good condition, SLIPPER time!

and speaking of that, i went rubi to buy shoes today. this bunch of arrogant jc girls was talking beside me while i was trying shoes and one girl says that 'oh, i dont know why some poly students can wear slipper and shorts to school, thy have got no sense of dressing'. i was like dotdotdot. you girls are just plain jealous that you have to wear uniform everyday dont you? and how well can you dress in the first place? and the most frustrating thing is that, while they talk... they kick my slipper away. feel like giving them a slap! argggggggggggggggh. fuming! well, you know i wouldnt do that. and and and the aunty at the bubbletea shop! i wanna complain! what kind of customer service? even though aunty also must have courtesy to customer mah! whats wrong with people nowadays ah? making a fool out of themselves.

well, luckily i met wanfong and co. while i was about to head home. and yeah, all the secondary school memories were back. and my day wouldnt have been better although pierreneo says that i look like 'moxiaoling' zomg! and wanfong says like ive become skinner -.- No k. ive always been this boney lol.

gonna ton tonight to finish watching my drama. tomorrow night dinner at bestie house! gonna bring her dog out for a walk as well. i want a dog! truly does. why dont my mum gets it?!

tonight might really be a 'good' night. it takes courage to talk to someone you think is cute LOL.

till then.,.,.,.,.,.,.

2010-05-13T13:04:00.005+08:00

strength to carry on
Dear life,

before i start a proper entry. i need to say, im sorry for not updating myself in my almost dead blog. my classmates think that im missing in action but im not k. ive been spending most of the time working like any other day. anyway, im here to announce that next week will be my last week working at botakjones. after that, esther and botakjones have got no more link. its a great pity to me as i'll definitely miss all the people and food there. 3 1/2 years didnt came that easy. i fight for everything i deserve today. bringing you good news, i'd passed my last sememster modules and im proud to say, ive graduated from mdis(management development insitutue of singapore) diploma in travel, tourism and hospitality. and now, its time to move on with life ;)

shall start doing my resume next week and then before i get a full time job, i'll most probably be hanging around with no income hahaha. well, i dont know if thats a good decision to make, to stop working before i get a full time job, but... seriously .. who cares? i wont die from hunger right?!

so, last week finally meet up with my girlfriends for chalet. a five girls chalet seems to be pretty fun afterall. i was dead drunk. though i knew what excatly happened that night but still i lost controlled in some of the things i did and im so thankful ive got bunch of girlfriends like this. who help me clean up my disgusting vomit and bathe me in the toilet. you girls rock my socks ;) and tan siao tong i know you were only happily taking all my ugly photos when im drunk! you useless kuku. by the way, i promised myself im never gonna drink so much/fast again. it really feel so awful to be drunk. i dont know why people love to drink when in the end it's you yourself getting headaches and stomach bloated zzz. i dont understand why people drink as much as why people wanna smoke. i really dont.

and for the past few nights, i stayed up all night to watched '下一站，辛福' and tadaaaaaa... im done with it. i bet anna still at the first episode hehehe. its really nice show. definitely worth watching for the girls. it made me tear like mad crazy woman.

before i end this post and im not sure when wil be the next time im gonna write the next entry, i need to thank people who love me. love me even when im dead drunk, people who love when ive got mutiples of pimples, people who love me when i whine like a baby, people who love me even when i fail to believe in them. you people make me believe that true love do exist.

2010-04-21T15:53:00.007+08:00

pray. eat. love.

2010-04-20T10:50:00.003+08:00

pinky and the brain

goodmorning sunshines ;) yet another sunny yellow banana day!

its good to sleep until you wake up but yourself. no alarm clock, no mum nagging, no school ,no work.

im working at clementi botakjones this evening and tomorrow so do drop by if you are free. hehehe. im heading to the library later.so not me right, going to the library when my exams are over lol. im going to accompany someone since ive got nothing better to do.

so yesterday finally met up with cybil. went down to woodlands to find creature and then we had dinner together, shop around and over to creature's place to get my toe nails done. yellow duckling nails! i like! credits to tst.

was supposed to go gyming with skinnyass but arghhhhhh. i forgot i had to meet e girls and main reason im pure lazy. anyway, we will be heading there tomorrow noon. i seriously need some work out. my belly is getting biggggggger. i need to stop munching too much snacks at night. belly is scarysxzssxzszxzs.

went anna's housewarming on sunday afternoon then starawards at night. photos already up on facebook so basically nothing much to talk about hehehe.

my sister is a bitch. she always try her new facial products n me, im like a geniue pig. but my face cant be any worse lah, so im kinda fine with it HAHAHA. i see my cui hair growinggggggggggggg wheeeahwheeeeeeeeeeeee. so happy

ermmm.. oh yeah. my sis's workplace needs a admin urgently. im still thinking if i should go for the interview. its 1.6k per month and its only temporary. though it make only be a few months but I HATE OFFICE JOBS. HATE IT TO THE MAXSXXZXZ. so im still considering ,while everyone asked me to go for it as im currently stil waiting for my results. but working there means... no more fun time, no more botakjones, no more no more. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. good thing is, $$$$, get to go online often.. facing the damn photocopying machine and computer every single day. boohoo. life sucks.

by the way, ive packed my room yesterday. photos above. nice? finally put up all the stuffs i bought from ikea the other day with anna. i need to repaint my room when sis move out this november. what colour this time round???

NANINANIPOOPOOOOOOOO~

goodbye my love

i understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. and how it can actually ache in places you didnt know you had inside you. and it doesnt matter how much you tried to make yourself busy and not think about it and move on with life, at the end of the day you still goes up to bed and wonder . what actually went wrong and how could this happen? and how in the hell in that brief moment i though that i could be that happy. however long it might takes, you'll go somewhere new. and you'll meet people who make you feel all worthwhile again. and little pieces of your souls will soon be backk. i cant believe i still think of you. not because i still love you. but all the things we use to do, and all the things we used to say its just hard to get over. though non of it is gonna happen...

change is inevitable, adapting to change is inevitable. what you get out of it is the strength you cannot find without the alterations. i wish you are fine by now. no one cant live without anyone. everyone should live for themselves. i promised myself this shall be the last post for you. be happy ;)

with muchmuch love, esther

2010-04-15T01:20:00.002+08:00

rocks my socks
went out with ivan earlier on for dinner. its been months since we last met, almost a year. and i so regretted telling him i prefer jap food than western. he brought me to this restaurant in bukittimah which freaking cost 200bucks. arghhhhhhhhhhhhh. the food was really good but definitely not worth that PRICE. he say because the food is fresh therefore its so ex. omgsxz. not the kind of meal i would want to eat even if i earn 10k/mth.
anyway, went down to get my sticky candies after that! love them so much! i would probably needs a new pair of teeth in my mid-age. sighh

its weird how some people do such little things and i get touch while others who could buy me a river and i feel nothing zzz. lost sheep

2010-04-15T00:48:00.003+08:00

things you thought i wouldnt do

hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii there,

see the photo above? (ok ,i look fat there) yeah, im officially in joshua's fanclub now. one main reason is because my sister is his fanclub president. just tell me if you are interested in joining. hahaha. use to hate him but not anymore. afterall he's really a nice guy if you really gets to know him well. say whatever you like if you dislike him cause it seriously dont bother me. joining fansclub kills time! im going to starawards this and next sunday night. teehee.

please call ; 1900 112 2017 if you likes him too ;)

2010-04-14T00:42:00.004+08:00

my analogy

have been enjoying myself since the day my exam ended. life seems to be so meaningful and full of excitement everyday. am really happy that im not wasting my time while waiting for my results. nevertheless, i have to work double hard in order for me to play hard. everything needs money.

last friday went kbox with my gfs. its been 1234566789years since i went singing with them and i really miss those good old times. like any other time, creature tan siao tong didnt get to join us. still, it turns out to be a pretty good one. wil upload photos in facebook once it allows me to do so.

friday night and saturday was well spend on work. my colleagues never fail to make my day. working have become another part of my life. you people should know how much i love going to work. dont you?

sunday was out with creature. cineleisure, bugis then vivo. wanted to get our post chistmas gift exchange gifts but its all sold out in singapore. not avaliable anymore!!! arghhh. so we decided t go for a picnic! my day can never be bored with her around. her voice and action zzz. annoying yet attractive. tell me which guys wont fall for her cute face and sexy body?!! hor tst?!! hahaha

movie 'fire of conscience' with colleagues yesterday. and yeah, they are from china and so? whats wrong with people nowadays? or isit only singaporeans? looking down on china people when we ourselves are chinese? you jolly well know that your ancestor came from there too! the majority bad cheenas people dont make all cheenas bad. just because of those china bitches who came singapore and find old man and cheats own their money doesnt makes those who came here and make their ass out earning less than 1000bucks a month and sending back to their beloved family right? its true that some are bad. the fact is that i know some too but there are others really good ones out there and yeah, you arent as luckily as me to get to know them so please stop telling me 'EEEEEE, why you make friends with china'? cause you just turn me off by saying that. well, i thought that only my family thinks that but seems like even my bestfriend thinks that too. pretty upset but no one is to blame. everyone got their own right to make friends and no one can stop me from doing this. im old enough to know whats right and wrong.

anyway, just got back from secondary school gathering chalet. NOTHING BEATS SECONDARY SCHOOL FRIENDS. though its only a day of joy and im not sure when will the next time be. still i wanna say, i love you guys ;) oh, and i actually just realise that ghwee got such charimg eyes zzz.

thats all for now i guess

love,

ster s

2010-04-07T21:28:00.005+08:00

Find your way to where you belong

the only way to release stress is spending money. another 150bucks gone in 2days. you people must be thinking how can i spend so much when im suppose to be mugging right.

was in amk library yesterday afternoon for revision. stared at the book for 2hours and i went for lunch at the library cafe. yes, alone. and theres something i wanna say, their food and service both sucks. never wanna eat in the library again. not only its expensive. the portion is so small and that china waitress... waste my energy typing about her.

so after lunch... you know.. the mood isint there anymore. so i went for my mani and pedi-cure!! so happy. not the nicest of all time ive did, but the cheapest! ahhhh. i wanna go there again and again and again and again.

today, marks my last day of study plans. cause tomorrow is my last paper! went down to tpy library (my favourite study place) to study. before that i had my lunch at subway alone again. k, so most of the time im alone. den looking at this man making a fool out of himself trying to get the elmo balloon from the ceiling makes me laugh out loud and therefore my lunch turns out reallly pleasant. hahaha.

4 1/2 hours in the library and im almost done with casestudy , so i decided to go shopping. and got this lovely pair of flipflops(above). so juicycouture inspired i know. but, its really cheap and chio. no? its from bata anyway. after spending so much money on my bebe slipper and birkenstock flipflop that ive yet wear more than 5times each, because everytime i wear it hurts my foot! why do expensive slipper hurts too?? they are like freaking 100bucks slipper and they stil wanna play prank on my legs. chickeeeeeeeeeeeen.

not to forget, branded goods skins fade off too! whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?!!!!!!! ;(

new hellokitty stationary to bring to work and got 2hellokitty pyjamas. those pyjamas i have at home is already torn and look like giam cai already. my mum forced me to throw but i just wont. cause they've got my smelll hehehehe. disgusting me.

by the way, theres something i wanna name here. not trying to boost but im really impressed and touched. last weekend while working ,this customer called me. 'esther?'. then when i turn back and asked yes? what can i help you? thinking that she knew my name as my name tag was on my blouse but nono. she said, you esther right? den i was like... ehhhh... do i know? and she replied.. oh, im one of your blog fan. i was like OMGSXZSXZ?! do people actually read this rotten blog of mine when i think that i am always talking chunks of rubbish here to myself other than my girlfriends reading it?

and not forgetting this cute girl who added me last night in facebook. probably reading this now? ive never asked anyone who added me in facebook, who are you? but when this girl added me last night, and out of boredem looking at her photos, which is really cute. i cant help to write on her wall and ask her do i know you?

and she replied so sweetly:' sorry i read your blog for a long time'. can you believe her adding me and telling me sorry? such a silly girl though. i dont mind people who i dont know add me but some are irritating freaks that ask me go for stupid bikini photoshoot paying my $200 when i dont even have that kind of figure???!

sometimes im thinking what kind of world im living in zzz.

blogger is stupid!! i press the enter bar but my words all stil cramp together. no choice but to put in the *******!!!

im looking forward to tomorrow, end of examinations! maybe not, more excitement on sunday. i miss doudou!!!

other than that, i need my sleep and moisturize now.

signing off.

2010-04-05T20:53:00.005+08:00

"learn your way around loneliness, make a map of it."

ive got so much to blog about.

first of all, thanks to anna and keekee for the colourful lollipoppy! i spend another 25bucks at candy empire buying all these junk. their candies and tibits are all so prettyea and yum.

bought myself a pair of levis sig jeans. this is like one out of all my other jeans that fits me perfectly. getting a pair of really-fits-you-well jeans is not easy. though the colour wasnt the one i wanted but i stil like it haha. normally i wear size 28 but cause the cutting is slightly smaller, im wearing size26! makes me feel im so skinny omgsxzsxzs. got another 2t-shirts from there to match my jeans too!

im down with flu ;( probably due to my messy room and not getting enough sleep. didnt slept for the whole of yesterday as i was mugging for commskills. finally over. i started studying for today's paper only last night. as i work straight four days since thursday. i just hope for a pass. bring me luck.

and about my overly messy room is because my sis is oversea for the past week and therefore ive got the whole room to myself. all my worn clothes, my books and used tissues are all over the place now zzz. sis coming home from hongkong tomorrow and leaving for perth the day after. hopes she got me lots of presents.

me: can you buy me some new clothes?

sis: you've got too many! your wardrobe is going to fall anytime.

me: den can you buy me bags?

sis: look at how many bags you have?!

me: shoes leh?! im one size smaller than you

sis: please, you've got so tons of new shoes you yet to wear.

me: accessories then!

sis: i will buy some and you can share them with me

me: ;(

zzz seriously

and im gonna go pack my room before she's back.

next, i need to stop eating late at night. all the chocolates and icecreams. it is making my complexion really bad.

next, i need to start WORKING out after my exams this thursday. i need to go for a jog badly. i miss the past when i go jogging alone in the evening. i dont know how did i became so lazy.

talking about after exams. my schedule is pack next and the following week already. call me to book in advance. most probably free on weekdays. really cant wait for chalet, clubs, kbox, movies, work, dates.

dont give your trust out like a huge bags of candies. dont stay up all night crying for someone who treated you like shit to begin with .

2010-04-04T10:21:00.003+08:00

分手快乐，祝你快乐
你可以找到更好的

不要伤心更不要难过。记住阳光总在风雨后，风雨过后就晴空。答应我还会快快乐乐的活下去，开开心心的走完这一生。

当然，还是要和你说声对不起。这快一年的感情不是说放手就放的开。

希望你尊重我的选择。因为幸福是我的，要自己去追求。加油了！

2010-04-02T14:13:00.003+08:00

hello there, so these two weeks was a mega success! beside having exams im working much more than usual. so its like double work for me. to and fro the library almost everyday. on my off days as well as after work. two papers down. just two more to go! comm skills vs casestudy. whooohoo! gambateh!
stupid mixpod giving me problems. is my songs playing? it plays only when it likes.... chickeeeeeeeeeeeen.

and like all my other classmates, during this stress period and sleepless nights. PIMPLES outbreak! its mutiplying like its free can?! finally time to do something to my cui face -.-

mask-mask-mask!

and after 30mins...

tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

hope my off make up face didnt scare you ;)

back to study then work! buhbye ^^

2010-03-31T22:36:00.003+08:00

在这世界上应该有让你想活下去的理由不是吗？
我很尊敬那些为心爱的人而活。活了十九年，我都在为自己而活。也该是时候想想别人了吧。除了自己还是自己。哈哈。很自私哦？不过还是很爱自己。爱我老妈把我生得那么不完美。
人生就如梦。我天天在做梦。
但我知道梦想就在不远。会多多给自己打气！不会让任何人玻怀我的理想。

爱人很难。还是被爱好！
加油了陈月玲！~
对不起。我华文真的很烂。我只是太无聊。你不需要关我啦！

2010-03-29T22:08:00.004+08:00

my tst

we pout
we smile

we stick out tongue

its funny sometimes when i think about all these uncommon things that bring us so close together. like how much she love yogurt, yolks and greentea when i actually hate them to the max. whereas im craving for my sashimi, steaks and lambs and she dislike them all. not to forget she loves her boring fish and chips and teriyaki chicken hahaha.

not only these of course. from her ever hyper active character who enjoy sports and the sun so much while i tried so hard to avoid them. how much she likes maths and i actually prefer essay.

i love pink and she love blue. they are like black and white. colours from two different worlds.

and what did so? i think it's fate.

and im sure this gonna last forever.

2010-03-27T01:20:00.004+08:00

little things you do

my bf came to fetch me after work with a bouquet of roses just now.

so...

me: wow... why today got flowers?

him: cause i love you

me: so you only love me today lah?

him: ya

me: T.T

2010-03-13T12:55:00.003+08:00

when i grow up

i cannot believe that my birthday is just 3months away form now. you people might think 3months is long but definitely not for me. i dont wanna turn nineteen. sounds old. its funny some people like me can get. when im 13, i wanna be 20. now that im turning 20 pretty much soon next year, i wanna go back to 15. when there is nothing to worry about. growing old is scary. thinking of all the responsibility im gonna face, i feel devastated. taking over my own insurance policy soon. i cannot imagine me paying everything myself in the future. now that i only have to pay for my own allowance and phone bills which i already couldnt cope. sighhhh. talking about it, before using blackberry my bill is 25bucks per month. with blackberry now, my bill is 70bucks per month. who to blame? myself. i asked for it. no? and by the way, im holding on to 2 phones now -.-

another thing, i dont like having big birthday celebration. it seems pointless to me. inviting all the humons who might/might not turn up. and the food/chalet preparation and stuffs are crazy. nothing beats having my amazing family, gfs and bf . im more than contented to have just them by my side. not to forget other sweet ones who remember my birthday. AND of cause, presents is love ;)

and ive made up my mind, im gonna take a month or two break after my studies first. i need to sleep more, eat more, drink more ,play more. who knows if the world really ends in 2012?

you cant believe but i stil wanna donate blood even though i cant. i need to gain more iron before the nurse start shoooooooing me away..

if you people are stil reading this, despite everything i stil love my life.

2010-03-11T20:09:00.004+08:00

i love IT fair!!!

it took me awhile to figure out either t get sony or canon. some might think sony, others may think canon. but they are both as good. fickle minded. thanks shine and bridget for the great help. im seriously an IT idiot. i know nothing about electronics. you girls really help me alot by walking up and down the packed IT show rooms with me.

the amount of people there was really crazy. we stil thought that there wont be crowd cause its the first day. nevertheless, we were swimming instead of walking hahaha. butterfly strokes. pushing the crowd aside. LOL.

and to my gfs working there! have fun and i promise, after exams!!!!! MUACKSXZSZXSZXSZXSZ!~

and now, presenting to you... (finally a camera on my own)
sony DSC-W310 PINK!!!!....

ciao~

2010-03-11T13:46:00.003+08:00

my six hundred and eleven

okay.. im really bored. had been stuck in school library for the past two hours waiting for my classmates to finish the stupid proposal before heading down to IT fair. i reall y want to go and see cameras. as in i really need one. theres nothing in this world i dont need. screw me, oh, and i got a sudden feel of getting a globe. for what the f**k? i dont know too. globe is so prettyae. i want to get one and put at home. mum gonna scream at me though. my house is seriously small for anything else zzz

anyway, m in my ribbon stocking. like a chio. some of my classmates say it dont suits me but whatever as long as i like si bo? ahhhhh. all my hokkien coming out again. even my colleagues say i look and sound like typical 80's ah lian.

my new lashes are falling...

k my friends are done.
bye all

2010-03-10T16:29:00.002+08:00

in your eyes

went to extend my lashes earlier on just now. thanks skinnyass for the company ;) and i freaking love them. my eyes look bigger, brighter, chio-er! okay, enough of my self-compliment.

off to work. bye holes =X

2010-03-08T21:25:00.005+08:00

so far so good

theres so many things i wanna do after my exams. picnic, drama series, triple dates, etcetc. just one more month. be patience esther. one presentation over. 2assignments down.

so beside working the last weekend. i spend some little time on shopping. so much accessories from f21, neulook. new bag from mango and new slipper from birkenstock. omgsxz. they are the sex though i spend like 200 in a couple of hours. they make me feel happy even when im dead tired and restless. thanks shopping. i would definitely die without you ;)

sis rom next week. will be going malaysia with my sisters to get our nails done. stil thinking if i should get gel or arylic nails? whooohooo.

ps: miss my gfs ;(

2010-03-02T21:15:00.002+08:00

like a rose

you feel extremly happy when someone pretty compliment you ;)

assignments due next week! ahhhhhh. more time for me please. im struggling now for my accounts. hopefully done soon so baby can help me transfer all into excel.

waking up at 630am for school is definitely worth. cause my lecturer actually give me extra points for coming into class early!

i know my blog is so boring. its always about my life stuck with work, school and assignments. but im really busy and all these are finally coming to an end soon. 8th april will be my day. i smell freedom already! but sad to say, by then all my gfs are getting ready for their school again. arghhh. life never fair.

as for the time being.. i seems like missing out tons of fun! lack of sleep. lack of nutrients. hair cui. face cui. and i seriously need teeth whitening for the thousand times im whining bout my borned yellowish teeths. hate it to the max!

hellokitty laptop bag, hellokitty mousepad, hellokitty nitendo cover,hellokitty casing.. only missing hellokitty mouse! im gonna get it tomorrow! yayy

imissmyfatfat! finally seeing him tomorrow. need to give him a big hug for working/playing hard for the past weeks.

but still i wanna say!!!! im very disappointed i didnt receive flowers this valentine!!!!!!!! GRRR. hate you to the core for this!

back to work. bye.

2010-03-01T00:01:00.002+08:00

went tpy to get my dslite casing. i went right to the shop and say, i want that red hellokitty case. the sales girl looking damn shocked and then she replied: oh, that is 29.90bucks.
then me: last week i came you say $15!!!
then she: oh yah... i think should be 15bucks. i forgot.

what the ****.

want cheat my money ah asshole.

2010-02-27T00:49:00.003+08:00

leave the worries for tomorrow

okay, dont have to remind me that my blog is dead. i know it better than anyone of you. im tried finding time, and the time is now ;)

ive got 300over photos to upload now. so im waiting for the right time. im not sure when it is either. i tried uploading my bintan trip photos like 2times which takes up total of 7hours. but it didnt work. facebook hates me. it only allows me to upload one at a time zzz.

so my days had been great. busy yet happy. these two weeks were a mega sucess. 10new clothing added into my wardrobe! cheap and chio. nitendo cover. zhnged phone. hellokitty stationary. 5movies!!!!( little big soldier, valentine day, 72tentants, all wells end wells too and wolfman) all good shows!!!! and and and.. facial done. fish and co with classmates. accompanied sis to try her gown. assignments with angels. hou lei with gfs. more! incentives from work!

please tell me im the luckiest girl on earth despite all the imperfections ;)

anyway, somehow i see my goals. the dreams im dying to fulfil is coming nearer to me. and therefore im trying hard to acheive everything i want and i need.

will be right back.

2010-02-13T14:18:00.002+08:00

Hello kukubirds! I'm backkkkk. Blogging with my bb now (: I love cny! Had sharkfin soup for breakfast and steamboat for lunch. Abalone!!! Ahhhhhh. Happy cny people! May u all be bless with good health n wealth in e year of tiger! Hugs n kissessss!

2010-02-09T00:11:00.005+08:00

final plans
will be blogging lesser these couples of weeks till my projects/presentaion/exams are over and that will be like 2more months away. really cant wait. most probably going to further my studies but if i could choose, i wouldn't want to. a diploma is more than enough for me. but hey, some things in life is not up to you to decide?

weekends wasnt well spent. work work and work. seems like i've miss out lots of fun looking at my girlfriends photos. but its alright, everything is pay off. finally clearing the debt that i owe my sis. new colleagues are fun too.

over stressed. looking at the time left and the due dates of assignmetns drawing nearer i can only be afraid and feel helpless. my brain is working but my hands are not. one word, "lazy".

having one meal per day, my eyes shut only after midnight everyday and getting up early morning for school/work. even the amount of vitamins and orange juice i take isin't helping at all. i really need to learn how to take care of myself.

im leaving to indonesia with my sisters for a break tomorrow and will only be back on chinese new year. i really need to thank my family although they irritates me most of the time especially my mum and sis. what i've got is what they give. just got my blackberry last night. i was overjoyed when i saw it. i was hoping for it but i didnt knew i'll get it so soon. thanks sis. as for mum, she's always the one who make sure i dont starve to death. buying me all my favourite cny goodies and food.i didnt mean to be grouchy at times hehehe.

have to skip school due to my trip. hopefully it wouldn't affect my attendace. i miss my girlfriends. i need to learn how to plan my schedule well. seems like even after im back from my trip i cant find time slots too. but soon k ladies? be patience. i promised! cny got 15days. first 7days cant, still got 8days lahhhhh!! love you girls and you know nothing gonna change this bond ;)

first time valentine clashing with cny. as in the first time i'll be experiencing. nothing special but spending with someone special is a special thing. right baby?

still figuring out blackberry functions and stuff...

will be back after cny.

yours truly.

2010-01-28T22:28:00.004+08:00

fly me to the moon
hi there. im here again.

today marks one of the happiest day in my life. spending money like water... firstly i went people's park to get my manicure done. met yilin there as she stay in clementi and there isint any convinence way for us to meet up before heading there together. cabbed down and there goes 12bucks to taxi fare. by the way, this is the first time im going out with her and its only the third time i see her. shes from vietnam and shes29 yet she look so much younger than me. fml. she got her toes done and like always, i got my fingers done! red with white arylic flowers. i had some photos but lazy to upload and seriously they look better in real life. as the shop was own by her friend ,ive got 15%off the original price which was 62bucks ONLY. its really looks much more than its worth. like a chio. took whole afternoon to complete my 10fingers (yeah like reborning hair right?) but this 4hours of torture is definitely worthwhile. all thanks to yilin.

got our nails done at 4 and off she go to meet her friend and poor me was famished by then. so i walked over to chinatown point for late lunch. delifrance promo set lunch was good! was craving for pasta and didnt wanna spend much. 9.90bucks including pasta, garlicbread, soup, drink, dessert, gst, servicecharge. you tel me who wont wanna eat?

headed over to central mall to shop as i was too bored. ended up getting a pair of pink lacoste shoes. gonna wait till cny then start wearing! wheeeahwheeee! so after buying shoes ,how can i forget bout new clothes? in the end bought 3sets of chinese new year clothes. if you know, i would be celebrating cny as i dont go around 'BAI NIAN' due to many reasons. i buy just for the sick of buying. it seems to be cny to me every month but who cares right?

over to tpy to meet my mum and bought 3tees and 1pants! and birthday cake for lil brother.

so, self declare. i spend almost 300bucks today.

and when i got home, open the mail box and tadaaaaaaaaaaaa. my results! one just pass and the other 3was all above credit! :)

im a happy freak.

ESTHER IS THE SEX.

2010-01-27T22:34:00.002+08:00

602th post

people who create christian name for themselves (eg.elizabeth christabel jane? wtf) are such attention seeker. cant stand it.

lying down flat with my netbook infront of me and munching on tibits. life hasnt been great like this for the past few weeks. i didnt get the chance to even on my lappy and therefore dont even talk about blogging.

spend 5hours cleaning up my house today. its dust/insects/mould free now. i never imagine my cabinets can be this dirty after not cleaning them for a year. the dust was more than doudou's hair and the ants were growing into hundreds. freaking scary. managed to carried all the bookshelves out of my house alone. got a small cut by the broken glass door. but looking at my living room now, more than contented :)

went back mayflower to collect my art piece this afternoon. sad to say, all three of them got theirs except me. we tried all ways we could to sneak into school to steal my canvas as teachers dont allow me to take. yet failed. on the happier note, my art piece is on display. it will still be there for at least the next few months. first floor second piece from the left. go check it out when you are free yeah.

skipped school today. hopefully someone nice help me to sign attendance. wasnt feeling well since sunday but work and school as usual on monday and tuesday. my sorethroat was killer. i even had to think twice before i swallow my saliva. im pretty fine now. everyone seems to be devil especially mum and sis. feeding me with chocolate cakes, fried chicken wings and coke. im dying soooooon.

getting my nails done tomorrow before cny.

ahhhhhhhhhhh. my legs are FAT.

lastly,
imissbaby!!!

2010-01-27T21:53:00.010+08:00

sexy love

2010-01-23T23:21:00.007+08:00

in a blink

its been a week. omg. i cant believe im neglecting this precious space of mine. and of cause people who come in every now and then to check if i update. im very sorry.

been a hectic week for me. the numbers of photos are mutiplying so quickly everyday that makes me dont feel like uploading anymore. as you know it takes time. and 200photos can takes more than 5hours sometimes. this is how crazy girls can be. hours staring infront of the laptop uploading photos. pure lazy now. wait till all the photos are up on facebook.

last week i worked consecutive 5days straight from last friday till tuesday. the weekdays schedule was a very last minute thing. who dont want to go work when he/she got nothing to do and theres money waiting... and so, my sleep time was cut off more than half everyday. the same exact thing gonna happen for the next week. holycrap. weekends in orchard, weekdays in serangoon. call me a super woman!
to michelle: if you are reading this. im so sorry i had to postpone our date again and again. but these couple of weeks my schedule are really pack and cny is coming soon and therefore i have to stay home and do some spring cleaning. so sorry about it. i will make up for you k. anything can send me message in facebook yeah ;)

school had been GOOD i should say. except for casestudy. all the other modules seems to be quite exciting and enjoyable for me. especially food and beverage management. charlieangles seems to be more close than ever? haha. five of us finally went out together last friday for a show.(photos are already up in facebook) 'hear me' if im not wrong. the starting was boring to the max. all of us almost fell asleep. ending was a lil touching. yeah, i cried in the cinema. how embarrassing.

got to meetup with gfs for dinner and movie few days ago too. (photos up too) 'toothfairy' is a VERY nice show! laugh nonstop in the cinema. if only fairytales like that can happen in real life. how great. i want some glitter powder to be pour over me and so i can forget part of the past. and i wanna become tiny and climb into people house! hehehe. *evil smile*

everyweek putting aside oneday for my baby is a MUST. unless our time really cant match. been postponing many activities with baby due to school/work overload too. though these two weeks hasnt been a good one for the both of us. fights/quarrels etc. i still love you very much. from joy to tears to every little things you do. i still wanna grow old with you. i dont believe in forever. but i trust my feeling. im sure febuary gonna be better for us! and thankyou for the hellokitty and chocolates! love you a million.

not forgetting my bestfriend. went shopping for her chinese new year clothes the other day. she got a pretty nice dress from 313. whooo. soupspoon for dinner(excuse me. where are the photos?)and couple date when? i want to go to the restaurant i show you that day!!! the one very nice one. remember????

last but not least. i went powerhouse yesterday night. yeah. first club. ever. fun like anything. my fun excludes all those perverts caucasians + drunkards. i didnt even drink a sip and im higher than anyone. im definitely going the second time but im not a clubber -_- and i wont go there so frequetly K. all my friends were right. they all say i will like clubbing and i will start dancing when i hear all those music. when i was so sure that i wont .but i failed. i enjoyed every bit except my tummy giving me torture last night. thanks scott and daryl for protecting us! you both man man! sorry if you guys didnt had fun because GIRLS ARE SO TROUBLESOME. hehehe.

this whole month of tiredness gonna be pay off. bintan trip on 10th febuary with siblings. i love my FAMILY :D

pray that i wont die so early.

with lots of love;
esther

2010-01-16T23:55:00.000+08:00

our 7th

2010-01-14T19:53:00.005+08:00

when life gets hard
im such a loser. i promised myself not to spend anymore money on my hair but i still did. as you can see that my reborning isint straight due to my previous overly curly hair. so i dialled up the salon this afternoon and told the aunty who help me to reborn that my hair isint straight anymore after one week. she asked my to go down and she reborn my ends for me again. (so it suppose to be free) after 3hours of treatment blahblahblah... finally done. straighter than ever. when i was walking out the salon the aunty say:' xiao mei, 50bucks'. wth! %$#$%^&*(? she actually asked me to pay for the treatment without telling me i have to pay for it in the first place. bad service. dont wanna go back there anymore! *ANGRY*
so 5obucks gone again. so my hair cost $50+$150+$80=$130= $410 in less than 4months.
congratulations esther.
fml.

tomorrow movie after school with my love4 in class. its always 5 i realise. seems that 5 in a group is good. hopefully magg can make it la hor!

work tomorrow.
work saturday.
work sunday.

bye.

2010-01-11T17:34:00.004+08:00

this moment is perfect

sorry for the lack of updates. three post in a day. song bo? xoxo.

i wanted to blog about my genting trip many days ago but i was waiting for creature to upload them into fb first before i could copy and upload here.

after she upload everything my laptop broke down. stupid charger hole make me so angry! okay, maybe its not the laptop fault because its freaking old already.

decided to send for repair in the first place but i think its not worth plus i so wanna get a netbook.

finally got it. im typing now with it. its a pink aspireone acer netbook. very chio!!! im stil not use to it but definitely soon. all thanks to baby for paying half for my netbook! and sorry bout the attitude the other day. i just tends to lose control at times. lol. XIEXIE NI FEIFEI. and now i even got myself a white/pink mouse to match my lappy. sucha a bimbo i know.

by the way, ive straighten back my hair. think most of you know as ive posted photos on fb already. everyone was like:"like that prettier ma'. dotssssssssss. i should stop spending so much money on my hair and start saving up for... for... for... for what huh? for nothing. so dont need to save!!!!! :P

school offically starts today again.one week of break is definitely not enough. looking at my F&B management lecturer makes me wanna faint. seriously he look like an idiot with his half slang english. school can never be fun without my classmates(:

got back my olevel english result. d7. much better than an e8 i supposed. blame it on my 'too much singlish'. hahaha. but who cares? its over. its just pure luck. i just didnt have that kind of fate. so now, WORK? RP? or continue with my mdis DEGREE? anyway, im graduating from my diploma this april!!!(if nothing goes wrong) some may say i siao, spend so much money on private diploma stil want go back poly for that stupid diploma for what right?! cause MANY says singapore's poly graduates are more regconise. whatever lor. im not a study person. pay me money and i'll work for you. (not that kind of dirty work you thinking) haha.

im tired. been working for the past few days. like full shift?? its only the first day of school and i thought of skipping school tomorrow. WTH.

2010-01-10T15:28:00.001+08:00

i wouldnt change a thing bout it

more photos in faceybook!

2010-01-10T13:51:00.001+08:00

3days getaway

hello earthlings. im back from genting. the best trip ever. though its only 3days but we really got so much fun. just by looking at the photos you can tell right?

ermmmmm. so where should i start from??

we took off last saturday. my uncle drove us there. it was a 7hours ride. my uncle was driving at 140! but we stop many times for toilet/tea breaks. my mum was awake all along as she was afraid that my uncle will drive even faster when shes asleep. on the other hand, creature and i were like pigs. we sleep and wake up only for toilet breaks, eat, and camwhore. sleepsleepsleep and this routine continue for the 7hours. creature kept laughing at my mum cause she said that 'lui lian very shuang' and bought 2bigs one and chunk behind the car. and she got bananas and 'orh ling kia' for us to eat. creature just couldnt stop her annoying laughter. now i know how to annoy people Lol.

we were both awake when the car was going up hill. felt very excited. the slopes was really steep and the clouds was blocking the screen and my uncle driving anyhow. very fun yet very scared. hahaha. when we were finally there. we check into 'first world' hotel and unpacked our stuffs. my mum actually wanted to eat western food but they were all sold out so creature and i went to eat kfc ourselves. really regreted eating the kfc there. the food sucks and so was the service. they bloody hell charge us more but never upsize for us. somemore tell us cannot when we already paid for it. so creature and i was whining allll the way while we were eating.
when shopping after that and we both got nothing. guessed creature was kinda disappointed as she thought she could get many stuffs there. ended up we stopped at starbucks for muffin cum cheesecake cum hot mocha. yeah, eat again. we were spending most of our money on foood.
back to hotel after that as it was kinda late already. camwhore and camwhore in pyjamas. we like those photos very much. so cute right? hehehe. let her play my DSlite until we both got tired and finally fell asleep at 3am.

next morning woke up 8am sharp by stupid alarm. hahaha. bathe and off for breakfast. my pork porridge and creature's western breakfast. (Y). mum's treat again. she gave me both me and creature additional 100bucks cause she won ABIT from casino the previous night.
so happy for sure la. and tadaaaaaaaaaa. here comes our second and favorite day! we went soooo many places. first we had to switch hotel for some reasons. this time round the hotel room was like three times bigger the first one and the toilet was like WOW. okay, call us 'shua ku' or whatever. its a premium room! only for special people from the guest list. ya lah, i very hao lian can.
then shopping and shopping for gifts. got baby the most presents! this is like the first trip i get so little stuff for myself but i really did enjoyed very much. whereas, creature got sooo many stuffs. she got a pair of shoes for her daddy and a bag for her mum. many things for herself and many gifts for her bf and friends. i got quite afew too actually :x count yourself lucky if you got my present cause i remember you :)
it was 2degree Celsius that day. like a cold only. hahaha. went down hill with mum and uncle for lunch at mushrooms palace! the place was bra-vo laaaa. as you can see from the photos.
we bought bubble gums and then called van and send us back to genting...
went to put on FAKE tattoo. very cool right? by the way, it had already fade off :( like a sad, so fast. hahaha. and then we went for manicure :D so chio my nails! back to hotel after that and creature realised that her nails was smudge. so she had to go back to the manicure shop to redo. our new hotel to the manicure place was like 20mintues walk! i was so tired from the previous night but i had to accompany her back. having a bad stomachache so i sat outside the shop wait for her. in the end she was down with menses. dotsssssss. so she had to walk back to hotel again to get her pad while i sat there and wait for her cause my tummy was killing. i was kinda upset as we were supposed to go for genting snow world but due to her pedicure smudge and have to redo and wait for another hour to dry. it was cancelled :(
creature finally came back after half an hour. i almost fell asleep on the bench there. went down to a cafe and bought food to eat again. I WAS FEELING VERY UPSET AT THAT MOMENT. but guessed creature didnt realised until i voice it out. and then she agreed to go look at the snow world timing when she claimed that her nails was half way dry only. hehehe. so the last time slot was 1030pm. we went at 1032 and the person dont let us in. the stupid counter girl dont even bother to look at us. f**king attitude problem she got. got me and creature so angry :( maybe it was all fated. i just cant go snow world la! real snow never see before, fake one also dont let me see! so pissed off. so we decided to buy cup noodles and tibits back to hotel. yesssss.. walked all the way back again lor. bo bian. we had a good time in hotel that night though :) we have to head back to the shopping mall again as we bought midnight movie tickets to 'treasure hunter'. before the show started we were both sleeping away already. haha. cant blame. we woke up at 8am and the movie starts at 130am. we woke up when the show startsss. both of us dont really understand the movie though. but lin zhi ling really gorgeous can?!! hahaha. ran back to the hotel at 330am as there was too many pervert uncles and man kept whistling at us. siao one lorrrrr. back to hotel and straight to bed. never even bath.... LOL

next morning. 8am alarm againzxzxzxzxzxzx! freaking tired but my mum keep groaning. asked us to go down for breakfast but dont let us bathe. command us to bathe after breakfast as she leaving for casino again. i was still half awake while she groan. creature too ,but she jumped up when she heard my mum say go eat 'dim sum'. crazzzzzzzy.
after breakfast back to hotel to pack our stuffs. or i should say i was the one packing all the stuffs while creature was taking her own sweet time to bathe. like an hour? heard her singing from the bathtub. mad woman. she think shes in her house! sing song somemore! never scream at her dont know how to come out also. HAHAHHAHA. my turn to bathe then continue to shop for the rest of the presents when we decided to go to the snow world and check if there was any timing that fits into us before heading back.
yayyyyyy. 1230pm snow world!!! we quickly buy the tickets first and went back at 1220pm as we scared that they dont let us in again. snow balls, snowman, slides, yogurt drink, hut house, SNOW!!!!! soooooooooooo fun! it was a pity we couldnt bring camera in. as they charge for the photos. but at least we got to play(:
creature finally got me my candy floss after that! :P went to but my small 'kaya kueh' again then lollipop then curly fries. cant stop eating!
managed to do 'I <3>
wait for my mum for an hour at hotel lobby while creature and i was having some dirty talks. HAHAHAHAHAHA. dont ask. secret(:
ice cream before heading to the car.
7hours ride back home again. stopped for lunch, fruits and bubble session! noon till night til noon till night till noon till night with creature. 300photos. i like.

its the best trip so far. though ive been there quite a few times already but it had never been so fun. even more fun than my japan ,thailand etc. you know its always good to be with you best friend. dont you?

and sorry if this post is really LONGGGGGG. hahaha

love tst.

2010-01-01T03:25:00.003+08:00

brand new start
first of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR!
how was your countdown celebration?? i spent mine with my sis and 'Joshua's fan club'. incase you dont know my sister is the president of his fan club. full-time-willing-to-die for Joshua job hahahaha. in the end all the members got cock up events that cock them up with the countdown show so NONE came. my sis had to call all the friends and siblings who are willing to come.

since ive got no plans, supposedly counting down at pierre's house. last minute dont know why cancel also and therefore i decided to go vivo city and join them. as you know im not a 'FAN' person and neither am i someone who love crowdsss. thats why ive never been to clubs before. but i really wanna try someday. dont laugh. lau niang virgin. hahahahaha. anyway, we queue for 5hours before the performance finally start! yet everything is worthwhile. we get to stand in the first row. just right below the stage and got to see soo many celebrities! i hope you didnt see me on tv.all the girls are chio and all the guys are so shuai! we were yelling at the top of our voices. itchy throat now. serve me right i know. but it was really FUN. especially when you shout so loud that you idol turn and smile at you. ohhh. your heart can melt.. btw now i realize, you need to have good complexion(dont count those unpopular ones), you need to be skinny! (all of them look so skinnier in real life) but but but.. you dont need to have big breast to be celebrity! that is one thing i agree with so much! all the ah jiesss. chio bu ones all no breast yet so gorgeous can?!!!
who dont agree with me? go and die lor :P

before i forget. went to catch 'olddogs' this afternoon with baby. not forgetting to thank my precious patient darling for accompanying me to go to the polyclinic. it was his first visit to a polyclinic. you cant believe, me too. love you tons hunnybunny!

okay. time check 3.30AM
time to catch some beauty sleep. goodnight.

2009-12-31T00:46:00.002+08:00

what goes around ,comes around
its over.no more papers. Now its my turn for holidays while all of you are getting ready for school again :P though is only one pathetic week but its better than nothing.

lunch with my gfs. sleepyhead ms tay didnt get to join us as usual as she was sleeping too soundly that 40 miss calls couldnt wake her up. therefore in the end only 4 of us lunched at suki sushi. more photos in fb. shall upload tomorrow.

headed over to bugis after lunch with creature. we planned to spend at least a 100bucks at bugis street but we ended up getting one jumper only. i love jumperssss. i want moremoremore please(:
bugis street isint 'ah lian' shopping palace anymore. its following up with trends and their goods are wayway cheaper than far east plaza. as in those exactly the SAME ones. 'better quality' ones. not like those 5bucks and you only get to wear one time and the colours fade off...
by the way, i decided to let go of my dokomo tote bag for moisturizer and concealer :( WHAT A VAIN POT I KNOW.

got a white rubber coat for my nano too. after i brought it home then i realized why did i got it from apple shop instead of bugis street? i think nano's rubber casing are selling like 5bucks there? yi fen qian, yi fen huo? i hope(:
and and and.. lau zhi wei is such a pain. we waited 3hours for him just to accompany him for his lunch?!!! wanton mee and icecream (Y)
home changed and over to creature house to bring doudou and then down to his cousin house for his birthday celebration. i thought it will be really boring but it turn out way better than i thought. BBQ food is always good. this is like the 20 bbq i went this year?

2009 is coming to an end. SOON. very SOON. this year should be a bad year for sheeps? how was yours? mine was awesome. be it good or bad times i had during this entire year. this is one of the best year i had in life. perhaps i think i met the right guy? i had the most wonderful birthday celebration? i managed to meet up with my girlfriends? ex class mates? although we arent studying together anymore? joined mdis? met my new friends? pay increase? HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA. good one. despite all my small little complains at times.

okay, this remind me to TYPE MY LUNGS OUT HERE.
my sister is such a loser. this is how unfair things can be sometimes. whenever i needed to borrow something from her and if i forgot to ask, she will yelled at me. and when she wants to borrow my stuffs ,she dont even have to ask. and i cant say no? wth. my black longchamp is like my favorite bag and its like going-to-spoil-soon-lahhhh. life is never fair. HAIZZZZZZZZZZ.

on the happier note, counting down 2 more days.
and oh yeahhhhh... KATE SPADE BAG IS PRETTYAYEEEEE :D
added to my wish-list. (PS: i just never stop adding)

2009-12-29T21:10:00.004+08:00

i ain't christian

for the one thousand and one time im telling you people im not christian.ive been stopped by countless ailens telling me about their great grandmothers stories. adam and eve? satan? and 'dont know' what day story. these people told me that if i believe and 'celebrate' this day with them. even when the world come to an end i wont die. oh please, i rather die with the rest then stay alive with all the christian. if you dont have scientific proof then dont tell me all these crap. and you people have no rights to say buddhist gods are statue and muslim god are invisible and dont exist. cause you've got no rights. no rights to say other religion when you dont even where the hella yours came from. i had enough. be it im home ,going to work ,shopping ,and now even in the library. this people never stop coming to me. why me? why always me? just whats your motive and what benefits do you get from me if i become a christian and go to church with you? if i had to believe i rather be Buddhist as my grand parents were. im a free thinker and you jolly well know that i dont believe in gods. and when i say god bless you. im the god and i will bless you not those 'gods' that you people talking about. i dont believe in people going heaven when they die. cause i think when people die they just disappear and vanish from this world. maybe they get to reborn? i dont know. but theres definitely no hell or heaven i suppose. my name is 'Esther' because my sister named me. so dont tel me my name is a christian name and i should be christian. ahhhhhhhhhh. i dont know why im so irritated by these people. please stop coming up to my house and tell me stories. i was a dumbo hearing all these since young. but see, till now i still dont believe. so get it? just go away will you?
to all my christian friends: no offence. but i really dont understand why your friends are doing these stuff.
(i rather die than to become a christian) thats it.

byebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebye.

2009-12-28T19:59:00.006+08:00

things dont always go your way
(when girls get boring studying ,they usually do this)

sezari sezali crowned singapore idol. third time malay guy won. they say its more like suria idol now. what do you think? i was hoping for sylvia but guessed its all fated.
http://mediacorptv.sg/en/buzzdetail/EDC091228-0000021

econs paper down. flunk. just hope my assignments and attendance help. last one to go on wednesday and thats it for this sem.

watched the news yesterday and it says long term wearing nail polish will leads to cancer. scaryzxzxzxzxzx.

headache. if i was told to grant a wish now. i want to become sleeping beauty(:

2009-12-27T19:13:00.004+08:00

indulge in the things you love

im currently so into alvin and the chipmunks. chipettes too. they are sooooooooooooo kawaii. i dont mind watching again if i dont have to pay for the movie tickets. hehehe

now that all kinds of celebrations are over. time to get back to library and start mugging. i spend an hour settling down in the library this afternoon. 5long hours of study session and 50% done. contented.

been figuring hard on itunes these couples of days. everyone was telling me itunes very easy one. like a piece of cake only. but it really took me hours and days. now that songs finally going into my nano, i cant wait to put more more more nice and IN songs.

i haven been exercising since i stop going for yoga lessons. im becoming weaker. and therefore my dream of donating blood can never be fulfill. my sister says they dont even have check for my iron level in my body. by looking at me they will reject me already. besides being underweight im weaker than you can imagine. flu visit me every few days. arggggggghhh. IF i have the chance to donate someday. i will pull baby along. cause i know he is more than willing to go with me. my strong and fit(fat) baby =D (PS: I MISSYOU TOO )

im crazily obsessed over socks nowadays. no idea why. looking at all the adorable stripy colourful ones just make me go woooo-la-la . just got another three pairs yesterday.
another wish-list coming up. domokun tote bag is my next target. please hang around bugis for the next 2weeks. i'll be there after my exams to bring you home. promised :D

singapore idol final tonight. i want to watch more than anything now but my family are all die-heart fans of "AI" and so theres nothing else i can do but to continue studying...

chicken rice for dinner. anything boring-er?

2009-12-25T23:06:00.003+08:00

hohoho, merry christmas!

finally finished uploading all the photos. it took me like hours resizing and all. boohoo.

where should i start from?

22dec 2009
mini christmas celebration with my family. sushi, honeybakedham ,sparkling juice, log cakes as promised. no turkey cause it was all out of stock. so sad. next year we're going to order before hand. i want big fat turkey! hehehe. after dinner we had gifts exhange. i got my mum's present. chocolates. boring zzzZZ. 3rd sis got me a pink sling bag from zara too (Y). overall it was good though movie was cancelled last minute.

23dec 2009
facial done!
and lau zhi wei advance birthday celebration. luckily it was right beside the badminton court. so we got to play badminton if not we gonna rot like nobody business there. happy birthday mr lau. all the best to ya. i know you definitely had a enjoyable birthday :S

24dec 2009
babbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbby! lunched at nydc. ribeye steak was good but a little too over cook. medium rare BEST (Y). we got gifts exchange as well. at first baby gave me the pink jewelery box. i was happy but maybe from what he describe the present was. i was asking for more. a lil disappointed. so i gave him his present. a red adidas bag :) and a 'very' nice card. hahaha. shall ask him post a photo of the card cause i didnt got the chance to take a photo of the card. it was very last minute.
awhile later.. baby pass me another box. and he bluff me that it was something he did for me. i guessed it was perfume as the box and everything looks like it. but when i open up and saw the apple logo. i knew it was my bestfriend. hahahahaha. her name is nano and she is pink and she is much more more unique than anyone of yours cause she have got tattoo at her back which says (I WANNA GROW OLD WITH YOU, BAOBAO) hahahaha. i was overjoyed. very happy. thanks sweetheart.
left for haji lane's ice cream. thumbs up. even baby agreed. back to bugis junction for neoprint! i like the neos! this time round was better than the last one we took. baby getting artistic. haha.
went home that evening and baby went to work... looks like he have to work double hard earned back the money for my prezzies :S

25dec 2009
christmas day is best spend with gfs. anna house for gathering. good food, good people, good time, good presents. photos shall do all the talking for me. enjoy people~

monday econs paper. haven started study :( maybe starts tomorrow after work. zzZZZ.

til then,,,,,,,,,,,,

2009-12-25T21:42:00.021+08:00

Seasons greeting
merry christmas :)

friendship bond

its just a girlfriends thing

for you, my love

nothing beats having a family

2009-12-21T17:16:00.004+08:00

six made dreams

okay, some say i really look weird in that centre parting hairstyle. i think i look cute up there hehe. just wanna mention something here cause i know my creature gonna see this. i just realize something. she is my one and onlyonlyonly friend who had never say that i look ugly in anything before from what i can remember. she never comment like how others say :'she also not pretty or look like panda without her make up'. 'never say can you stop putting so much make up?' 'never say your hair looks like aunty'. or ..:' eh, you dont wear this eh, cause it dont suits you or dont look nice on you.' because she knows me better than anyone of you.
thats me, i like the way i am and no one could ever change me. thanks TST.

this photos was few days back when all of us try t fork out some time for a tiny meet up. we had pizza hut for dinner. the newly launch christmas pizza sucks.

marketing down. my hard work was pay off. cause the questions i studied all came out la. like a happy only.

anyway, im finally getting my IT fair pay from 4months ago! just how irresponsible can this people be? but its definitely better than not getting it.

i wil be having four christmas celebration this year despite clashing with my papers. can you feel christmas? tomorrow night with my family. honey baked ham+log cakes+turkey+sparkling juice+presents? whats more t ask for?

2009-12-20T21:02:00.005+08:00

crossed fingers

tadaaaaaaa. my self-made egg mayo for my family breakfast tomorrow. it might not look appealing but its really good.

last minute of christmas shopping almost killed me. i was squeezing around the crowd after work in my botakjones tshirt and off makeup. i hope no one recognize me. cause i look very cui. got all the presents already. wrapped and named(: cant feel any happier.

im getting worried for my IT exam on wednesday. since like every other had started studying for it except me. diediedie. is luck gonna be with me again this time? let fate decide. hehehe

last minute study is not good for health? i shall go sleep already. wish me good luck for my paper tomorrow and of cause good luck my fellow classmates.

night.

2009-12-20T00:48:00.003+08:00

childhood days

downtowneast with baby just now for looney tunes. the crowd was packed like sardine. all lil little ones. didnt get the chance t take photos with them. pity. i wanna go disneyland. who wanna bring me go?

tomorrow 10am sharp. im dead tired.
goodbye.

cause i couldnt find a reason t leave you now.

2009-12-18T16:19:00.005+08:00

satisfactory

IT sucks. even looking at the exams questions given, ive got no idea what its all about. im almost done with my marketing:) if only IT can be half as easy as marketing then i dont have t worry so much.

i FEEL friday. friday mood is here! im going out tonight with my family. movie then mini celebration for sis bf birthday. seems like theres many december babies. zw bday nxt week.

wil be working both tomorrow and sunday. hopefully mine marketing notes dont get out of my mind. okay, i really gonna admit my blog in boring. and its getting boring-er. sorry dudes.

anyway, my lil brother got his Nlevels results today. 19points for 5subjects. he insist t go ite instead of sec5. very stubborn. no one can change his thinking. not even my parents and sisters. so.. hopefully he wil change his mind before its too late.

christmas is coming! hows shopping people? orchard road is pack everyday. ive got some christmas gifts already. 6 in total for now. ive got 2 more t go. so broke but ..love christmas. love presents! yayy

i want my exams t finish NOW. (two more weeks t go) and.... hello genting!

2009-12-16T23:17:00.002+08:00

gift

(coincidentally me and my charlie angels wore the same outfit t sch)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAGG WEE WEIPING!
may you be bless with good health and happiness :)
enjoy your day tomorrow! cheers~

HAPPY 6TH MONTHSARY BABY!
its a pity we didnt get t meetup due t exams. still, you know iloveyou very much.
this half year didnt came easy. but its all worthwhile! MUACK~

2009-12-15T09:51:00.002+08:00

ding dong
is anyone still reading this space? its like becoming a photo gallery more than a blog hur? lol

been busying studying for the past few days. exams are just round the corner. NEXT WEEK i suppose. i dont think ive got enough time t finish studying in time. dead shit meat. but its okay. its always good t give it a try. give it your best shot. so goodluck t me :) all my friends had finished their exams and some finishing this week. *envious* i cant enjoy my christmas this year. bad.

anyway, few days back went down clementi t gave elias a birthday surprise with benny. the photos are in fb so check there out. and im so glad he was happy hehehe.
and to mag: if you are reading this, im sorry i didnt turned up t your bbq last friday night as i couldnt cancel my shift at work. and i dont think i can make it t your club celebration this wednesday. HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY okay! have fun and love youuuuuuu~

looney tunes on saturday! THIS IS LIKE THE ONE AND ONLY thing for me t look forward t now :0

anyway, face shop new launch nail polish in neon / rubi new launch pumps in neon are so LOVED! im sooooooooo gonna get them after my exams. i miss shopping hohoho.

m going to the temple sooooooooooooooooooooon. kbye.

2009-12-10T11:10:00.006+08:00

pre-destined

*wish me luck*

2009-12-08T22:23:00.002+08:00

bliss

2009-12-07T22:47:00.002+08:00

pardon me